wow (loving a friend)
wow.....
Who would have thought,
Me, fall flat on my face for you
Not that you're a bad person
You are quiet the opposite
You are kind, warm, and loving
And life would be devastating without
you
But I'm being selfish
I want to keep you here forever
Maybe staying friends will make you a
lifelong presence
Yeah
Just friends
No romantic feelings at all
Like brother and sister…
Who am I kidding
I just can't stop my feelings for you
I mean I've been trying really hard
To stop these feelings
Trying to convince myself
We are just friends
We can never be together
There is someone out there
That's better for me
…better for you
But I can feel my inner self
With a sad look in her eyes
Shaking her head
At my desperation,
My denial
I try to distance myself
I try not to make eye contact
I try not to get excited when I see
you
I try not to look for you in a room
I try not to feel the comfort you
bring
I try not to talk about you to other
people
I try not to feel the mixture of
emotions
Constantly warring for dominance in
my head
But nothing seems to work
And I hate it
I hate how you make me feel
I hate how jealous I become
Over the dumb things
I hate how I turn into a dumb girl
With anything involving you
I hate how sad I become
When don't see you everyday
I hate how I almost cried in front of
you
I hate how you can twist my emotions
Without even knowing it
I hate how much you affect me
I hate how much I want to know you
I hate how much I want you to know me
Even the secrets I'm too scared to
say out loud
I hate how vulnerable I feel around
you
I hate it
I hate it
I hate it
But I like it…
I like how you smile brightens my day
I like how your hugs make me feel
I like how I can be someone you can
confine in
I like how I feel like I can tell you
anything
I like how just your presence
Chases the demons away
I like how I want to open up to you
I like how comfortable I feel
Laying on you while watching movies
I like the prospect of being your
girlfriend
I like it
…I might even love it
But I will never tell you that
Not in a million years
Although I want to…
I want to feel your warmth
I want to feel your lips on mine
I want to be the reason you smile
I want to stop that sad expression
From spreading across your face
I want to make you happy everyday
I want to be the one you look at
With a loving expression on your face
I want to be that person
You can't help but tell
"I Love You"
I want…
I want…
I want to be yours
But I don't want to loss you
But pretending I'm not falling for
you
Is becoming harder to do
What can I do…
What can I say…
Make it stop
Let me find some sort of peace
Or live in harmonious chaos
wow..... 
